Imposter Syndrome

July 31, 2017
Impostor syndrome (also known as impostor phenomenon or fraud syndrome or the impostor experience) is a concept describing high-achieving individuals who are marked by an inability to internalize their accomplishments and a persistent fear of being exposed as a "fraud". - Wikipedia

Whenever people meet me for the first time and already know me from the Webflow Workshops that I host, they think I’m a very confident guy. They look up to me and enjoy watching and learning from the workshops that I stream. Well, let me “pull back the curtain” a bit and tell you the truth.

I don’t know what I’m doing.

Even after over 90 episodes of live workshop streams, I’ve been doing this same routine. Every Tuesday, 30 minutes before my stream I get nervous and need to go pee.  I stare at the clock and double, triple, quadruple check settings on Xsplit.  I run through the day’s website build in my head. Then at 10am I take a deep breath and hit the button to go live.

Yes, it’s been getting easier and easier with each stream. But, during the stream I sometimes still get imposter syndrome and ask myself “will this be the episode where people will see that I don’t know what I’m doing?” The real reason why it’s getting easier is because I’m faking it till I become it.

Imposter syndrome is very common. In fact, everyone who is trying to be better at their craft goes through this.  Whenever you look up to someone, know that he or she is “faking” it.  They are just as scared of failing as you are.

No one knows what they are doing.

That might sound negative but to me it’s actually a positive thought. If a person knew how to do everything, then life would be boring; nothing new to learn or discover.

So, if you’re sad and feel like a fraud at what you’re trying to do, keep going. One day, you’ll figure it out and no longer feel like a fraud.

Then later you’ll just be a fraud at something else. ;)


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